Why I shouldn't lose sleep over studyin

Every goan is supposed to be inherently sussegad( which when translated means content, happy go lucky and sometimes plain lazy). So being Goan , you might be surprised to find me doing my post graduation in a B- school. For those of you naive creatures who thought that all the hard work ended with the gettin of a certain percentile in cat or xat or some other exam which then allowed the individual concerned to appear for a group discussion and eventually led to his/her selection into a pretty ok/pretty good/ awesome B-school, you are mistaken!

That is not even the tip of the iceburg. So stop with the congratulations!( whether its, you, yourself or your friend or a family memeber) The commerce grads I've spoken to, say the first two weeks were easy but after that, they were as befuddled as anyone else. My being from an arts background doesnt help any. I was befuddled right from the foundation course.

The progressively increasin amounts of work we are expected to complete are really something to reckon with. Sometimes in the canteen, I see some second years just staring blankly into space, looking completely lost. and i wonder, how long it will be before thats me! I hope it never will be, but since i have a tendency to be a lost soul, i think I'm fighting a losing battle.

Before I got here, I enjoyed my me time. But the way things are going, I'm guessin thats something i'll have to let go off unless I perfect my time management skills. Right now they're at zero.

The prospects of 2 D's and 1 F , 2 F's or 4 D's are I guess what kep me awake most nights trying to study. The key word here is trying. Don't really think I'm getting anywhere as of now. Even when I do get sleep , The F's and D's haunt me , resulting in restless sleep frequently punctuated with nightmares. As a result I fall asleep in class and sometimes am awake but too sleppy to comprehend what the proffs are trying to teach!

Something that really freaked me out was when a proff said, there are a lot of changes a person goes through in B-school . Two years later he's a completely different person! I can already see bits of me being chipped away. Will I become a polished corporate woman unrecognizable to all including myself????Not that change is a bad thing . In fact a world without change would be static. But like all good things, change is better in moderation.

A second year student aptly said, " If you don't go mad here , you'll go mad in the workplace". So either which way us, B-schoolers are destined to go nuts so I'm not gonna lose any more sleep over this!